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IIII~ I am going to rant again :3
Also. I just like typing :3

Ok. So.
Im having a hard time with teenager... Ugh... L-word.

I don't find it fun. When you like two people. One person being a boy. Another being a girl
I don't like the fact I wanna flirt... and have my friend be mad at me for it. The girl be mad.
I don't like that fact at all... I wanna find someone and be happy for once.
I have not been happy for a very long time.
I'm not mad at anyone but myself.
All this is because of me.
My pain is because of my doings.
No one elses doings.
Now... All I ask... Is to find someone who will like me for my gender confused self.
Who will like me for my crazy nonsense self.
For my... Violent influenced self.
For my Bi polar moods.
For my A.D.D and complete and utter bursts of rants...
For someone who finds me beautiful inside and out....
The problem is.
Theres two people who can handle that.
That certain Boy...And that certain Girl.
Both of which I cheated on before.
:(
I have a feeling I'm going to be alone for a very long time...
For a very...Very long time...



I wish I could just... Live a fantasy for one day... To have one wish come true.... Just once.... :'(